Your perception of me is a reflection of you. My reaction to you is an awareness of me.~askcoachbobbi.com I love this quote. I have this quote on my fridge. I have used this quote as advice and as medicine. I have had this quote bite me in the ass with my hubby when I realized my perception of him was a reflection of me. (yep, that one stung a bit). This quote has been an ah-ha game changer in my Self as it has freed me to not take things personally. Or I should say it gave me the affirmational voice in my head to focus on when I began to take something personally. This may not be the only time I write about this quote as I have found it applies to many topics.
Lately I've been mucking through this topic of "taking a day off". It's a hot one right now in my life since I've been hearing it from so many people. From people I love and I know love me and I feel that they have valid concern, as I have been working an ass ton....and I love it! Truth be told, I find gettin' 'er done and working on building this career of mine a creative outlet. When I'm in a creative flow I am inspired, excited, learning, growing, challenging myself, and feel like I have purpose. It's hard to just walk away from all that feel-good momentum. Plus, building a career, writing a book, self-marketing, yada-yada-yada takes work, focus, and sacrifice of time. Whoa, kinda sounds like I'm trying to justify it...doesn't it? Well, instead of backspacing and deleting that last sentence (in bold), I can use this as a teachable moment. Here's the lesson kids: when you have an awareness of yourself not speaking your truth, then you must STOP, ask yourself "who", "what", "how".
Who am I trying to convince? "the exhausted part of me that is tired and running on empty. I feel this in my mind and it's thinking tank is getting low...it's thunk way too much, for too long with and needs refueling."
What is really true for me? "to take some worries and fears off the table. I can feel these taking up the thinking reserves that I want to have for my work. Everything before that bold sentence is true for me and to keep it true I must have fuel to let it continue living true for me"
How do I bring this into my truth? "first; locate, identify, and heal the heart of the worries and fear. Second; schedule some time off!"
Funny, this is not how I thought this post would go, however, a teachable moment is hard to pass up. And my desire is that you are inspired to use this example to benefit you too! I am chuckling at the irony of it all. So...what just happened here? I caught myself delivering a sentence that didn't flow as truth to my Self. And instead of pretending it didn't happen, I used the STOP; who, what, how, truth exploration tool. In doing so, I can see and acknowledge that I do in fact need rest and bring some of my energy resources into a full and balanced state. I already feel less buzzing in my mind, I feel more relaxed, and I feel more deserving of the time of. All because I took the few moments necessary to look at what is true to my Self. Wow, this never gets old or less amazing. Instant relief, different perspective, and the answers to my questions have given me a map of what I need to work on. Looks like I'll be doing some energy medicine on myself this week! I need to see what wound or imbalance is using worry and fear to take up my thinking energy...and why it has decided to present itself now. Then I will heal it from there. I'm thinking a dose of extraction followed by thought form/belief re-programming; a dash of power filling, and a topping of soul retrieval and I will get this tank full again.
To honor this process and the reflected answers to the "who, what, how" part one of the "how" answer is to do some energy medicine on those worries and fear (have that scheduled for myself on Thursday). Secondly, I have looked at my calendar and have found a weekend in June that I will take as my "time off". I plan on hitting the road with my mattress in the truck bed, my food, my camping supplies and my laptop for writing. I want to hit some campgrounds. Hike, write, and eat. (my version of eat, pray, love) And for anyone who is thinking that writing is still working...well, is that your perception of me.....?
Since my original thought topic has been derailed by that sentence of non-truth, let's put this train back on the track for the next post. It is not lost on me that I began discussing a day off which indicates self-care, and I have ended up writing about how to take care of the Self in the moment. HAHA. Seriously, this is too much fun.
Till next time..