In between Solstice & Christmas {guided journey gift for you}

I'm sure by now, you've heard me gush about my love of the winter season...the dark time of year. One of the many reasons I thrive in the dark is the pull toward reflection. Today I'm reflecting on how much has changed for me in this season of holidaze. (not a misprint). Today I'm reflecting how {yet again} in life I am neither this or that. I'm neither one or the other. I'm the in-between kind of gal, and the more honest I am with myself and my actions, the more I'm good with it.

 Solstice Fire

Solstice Fire

 Yule Tree

Yule Tree

Today is this unique in-between. A couple of days from my beloved Winter Solstice...the energy I most celebrate during these holiday conundrums. And a couple of day away from the Christmas holiday that I have spent YEARS of my adult life divorcing my familial funded hub-bub...although I've held on to the tree and the stocking stuffed for my kid. (fun fact...the Christmas tree was inspired by the Yule tree...just sayin'. Anyway, today is a weird in-between of what is mine, what was expected of me and the blissed-out freedom I feel by owning the new land of ease I've created around this holiday season by going my own way. I sometimes forget the panic, overwhelm, and chaos that one can feel when they are filling up their time with making memories that are born of tradition.

And then I listen...I listen to hear what is being said between the words...I listen with sacred ears and realize how much I'm missing. And I hear the tender tensions running through the sacred sounds of voices. I hear the swallowing of truths because there doesn't seem time to deal with the mess that truth tends to make. I hear the exhausted depletion of not enough Self care (whatever that is for you) ((I say that because my way of Self care looks a lot like doing too much, but I love me a checked off to-do list)). I hear myself wishing to help ease those threads and so I had a good long talk with myself and we all agreed that why couldn't I offer a guided journey meditation to my people and if you are in overwhelm...may it help make space and energy to get through...may it deepen your connection to your Self. 

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Today is a heavy day for another reason. I said good-bye to the Boxer we have been fostering. He found a home rather quickly and we were on the path of saying yes to adopting him ourselves but the timing we needed to decide didn't quite work for the timing that opened up for him. I fell in love with this boy...my Budders. I am heart broken and walking the mechanics of threshold crossing that I often preach in my circles of sacred space. I have so much I could share that I think would be reflective for you, but for right now I need tend to the feels of this loss. My vision is to circle

back here an share my experience of how to navigate difficult thresholds. For now, I wanna get drunk in how much I love him. I am gonna sit in this container of feeling the loss and hold that with some love today. I shared about him on Instagram if you wanna check that out. There's some good juju in those rambles. 

Without further adeu...I offer you this gift. I hand you the permission slip to carve out 20-30 minutes for yourself and let someone else do the dishes...run to the store...whatever...and receive some good medicine from the elements that make up the sacred space of you. If you are overwhelmed, depleted, or just want it...you need it. 

May your holidaze be that of a memory where you find yourself declaring that it was the most enjoyable one yet! I love you, Nissa