So, I wonder if any of you wondered if you were missing a video this month of August....It's not lost in the google/gmail restructuring.
CONFESSION: my muse was on vacation.
And I have to say that since last month's video of living/speaking unscripted...I just couldn't force it and feel good about the end product. Plus there was the Telepathic Communication Practicum I was heavily involved with and just this week my Hubby fractured a vertebrae so that has my life on slip and slide mode. Which isn't so bad when you inject the unscripted practice into crisis...there has been less shit for me to clean up by way of really saying what is true and not what is "scripted" AND by way of having presence in every moment more and more.
So when it comes to not getting that promised video out...I'm in a place of "it's okay" and "I'd be more proud of it when it's authentic, so I'm not forcing this".
I trust you all understand and I hope you take this as inspiration to treat yourself the same way.
I have been lucky enough to be granted an online Spirit Writing course by Amy Lee Czadzeck. And up until Practicum camp time I was at week 4 in the 8 week course. This course makes my head buzz and hum and tingle...literally. I feel held in the discovery of my writing. I feel held BY my writing. Anyway... I am playing catch up and working on week 5 which has the prompt of writing a love letter.
So I wrote a love letter to Love.
It has occurred to me that I don't show you enough appreciation for your presence in my life. I haven't given you the love or credit you deserve. Today, I write this love letter to you and trust that it will nourish you.
You have been in my life since the beginning...before the beginning. You have been an undercurrent of power and life force behind every tiny moment of my life. I'm beginning to realize that behind every trauma, drama, wound...behind every mask I have ever had or encountered, you are found at some layer of these things. You just are there; waiting, listening, flowing, holding, and loving. I feel like you are always there for me and I want to tell you that I know I haven't always been there for you. I love you for having a limitless source for me to connect to. This is such a beautiful and authentic power that makes you YOU.
How can you always be there in service to every moment of life? I am fascinated by this and want to know more about how you are YOU and Love...you are perfect. You are clean. You are beauty. You are what makes everything whole.
You flow through the light and the dark...bringing your SELF as an available life force.
I want to let you know that I would not be here without you. I give you this gift: I choose to see you, love you, and allow you to flow through all my moments. I want to have you, feel you, know you, and show you.
I am ecstatic to have you in my life. I desire to deepen our relationship. Thank you for hanging in there with me, loving me, as I untie the binds of resistance to you.
Anyway...I totally recommend this course when she offers it again. (click on her name to go to her website)
What is your relationship to Love?