Do you have a Word for the year?

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create2014 We are nearing the end of January. Did you do new years resolutions? If yes, how many of them are still in play? If no, why not?

I broke up with new years resolutions YEARS ago because I realized the failure and self disappointment I felt when they fell short was not worth feeling. At the end of 2012, I saw on the Facebook world women announcing their word for the upcoming 2013 year.  So I stalked their posts and clicked on the free downloads to guide one to their word of the year. I found it to be kinda-crazy-awesome. I loved the idea of working with one word for a whole year. To have a simple focus on it. To have a complex understanding of it through experience and life.

2013...my word was opportunity. And the ripples of experience met with holding myself present in order to bring in the focus of opportunity. I found all the heavy challenges thrown my way as opportunities, therefore I responded to them more positively. I found the awesome moment more vibrant and magical, therefore I allowed myself to feel the joy and fun more. It was a roller coaster year that I look back on as incredible learning and wisdom and self exploration. Looking back at 2013, I feel connected to opportunity and realize I created a relationship to it, and I let it change me. A-ha! I finally feel an accomplished and successful resolution played out in my life. I had to simplify my focus to amplify my results.

Simple doesn't mean easy.

And I value the lessons of my opportunities because this is true for me. Building a relationship to opportunity in a simple way brought me to the complexities of understanding deeply what opportunity is. For me, it became a work out for my "space holding" muscles. It became a wide open field for me to run free in. It became a nurturing cave to lick my wounds and begin again. Gratitude doesn't even scratch the surface.

Entering 2014, finding my word was much like being in a labyrinth.  Searching in one direction, following the scent and BAM, a wall....nope, this isn't the one. But I kept following the scent. I had to dig deep and I found myself surrounded by the truth of a word that scares the shit out of me a bit. This word takes me to deeply disappointed places where judgements, criticisms, and abandonment have very loud voices. Stepping into the home of this word and these voices will require me to allow myself to be emotional, vulnerable, and warrior....terrifying; a battle for more. It incites anxiety and excitement and child like open-hearted-ness. It will require me to own it, take credit, and give. And this word is....

CREATE

This month of getting to know my word I have been on the "first date" high. We giggle and play and flirt. And I have been giving it full attention, which is why I haven't blogged in over a month. I am already creating. I am looking forward every day while staying present...in the moment...performing the tasks of creating.  Held by constant flow of inspiration and dreams. Held in the accomplishments of: book content, art-work for divination cards, loving moments with my family, and forgiveness for the judgey critics. Feels good.

Do you have a word for the year? Share it here! Do you want one? Below are the links I used to guide me through discovering mine.

http://www.susannahconway.com/2013/12/lets-make-some-magic-in-2014/

http://christinekane.com/how-to-make-2014-successful-prosperous-and-magical/

 

In The Balance

Three mornings ago I was up by the moon light shining on my face.  I decided to heed her call, made the coffee, poured it into my favorite mug, swaddled myself in a blankie, and meandered onto my back balcony.   I leaned into the railing and drank in the silvery glow of the moon.  Her light caressed the leaves and fruits of my garden, while the darkness still danced on the underside of the plants.  I felt my face illuminated with the strong mystery of the moon, and I felt myself pull into the still of my inner world.  I remained in the silvery darkness, the powerful stillness, and allowed myself to go deeper and deeper.  Uncovering meaning in the moment. After simmering in this magic of the moon, the sun began to stretch his rays into the sky on the other side of the earth.  The moon was still out and radiating her beauty, but the light of day began to step up.  The garden still glowing silver, and with an added ingredient of a new day.  The Eastern horizon kept grabbing my attention from the direction of the moon, so back and forth my open eyes veered.  Back and forth my heart desired the illuminated darkness of the moon and the promised newness of the sun.  Back and forth my soul gathered the radiance and wisdom of both.

By now, the sun had reached an equal billing of power as the moon.  Both energies standing in perfect unity on this planet without one being greater than the other.  This was a brief moment, but a profound moment that brought me to a place of balance I had not yet experienced.   A place of balance within that gave me a fresh pair of eyes to view myself with, a new voice to forgive myself with, and a new door in my soul to open and explore the world within.  This moment has been percolating for days, unfolding more and more of the whole picture that was in this moment of balance.

Then...it shifted...the moon kissed the sun and the sky good night,  turned her attention away and began a journey downward.  The sun grew in his power and the warmth began to glow.  The leaves and fruits of my garden were caressed in golden morning rays as the shadows lightened underneath.   A sense of rebirth, purity, new beginnings, and growth filled up the sky, the earth, the rest of the morning.  What an incredible gift this time of year is, this autumn, this fall.  It is delicious to the sense and food for the crafting of a soul.

As I have sat in the feelings and ideas and messages of that morning, I am in grand inspiration for the perfection of nature around us as it holds up a mirror to our soul....

How can we be in balance within us, holding the equal power of both the dark and the light?

How can we surrender to accepting and living our truth and not be out of balance with it?

How truly unwounded we are in the center of the light and the dark!

What do we need to let go of, and what do we need to let shine?

What can we do to feed the strength of our inner balance, so we root deeply into who we authentically are?

I invite you to journal your own thoughts or responses to these questions, and I challenge you to welcome the questions your soul asks after you answer these question.  Blessed be!

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Creative High

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I read somewhere once that activity inspires creativity.  In a culture where inactivity is an emerging dominance, I find this concept a true medicine for our cultural and personal lethargy.  So, I have been exploring and implementing this "activity inspires creativity" for a couple of months now, really playing with many possible applications to my daily life. First of all, let me just say how fun it is on a creative high!  Around my home, I've been using a term I've coined "creative crack" due to its incredible energy boost and out-of-my-mind goofiness.  Immersed in the flow of a creative high there is an uprising of living with excitement, wonderment and purpose.  The language of the Self and inner truth is understood without a translator and the message comes clearly with direction as well as the energy to move in that direction.

In the physical body, it feels amazing.  Aches and pains go away, workouts are focused and intense, laughter comes easily and often.  The creative high radiates from the core of the Self, the place of who you are, and expands beyond what you know as the body.  It's like feeling super huge, impossible to hurt, sure of path, and fearless to the possibilities.

When the "creative crack" and I were first dating, all of this awesomeness was an everyday occurrence and it is incredible how much I got done.  Time was this enigma that worked around me and my purpose instead of me working my purpose within the rigid line of time.  Time and "creative crack" are passionate lovers whose embrace and intimacy when breathed in conceive an entire world where purpose and life's meaning make sense and are concrete.  In the newness of our courtship "creative crack" and I planned our year, we began new projects, brainstormed and story-boarded future direction and ideas, (ahhhh) we were close and taking my world by storm.

As with any relationship, the newness wears off and in this relationship my ex (the mind chatter) began stalking me and poor "creative crack" had competition for my attention.  It started out small, with maybe a day or two here and there with a disconnect from my love affair.  Then life happens.  A misdirection of focus here to help a friend out, a distraction there to deal with a negative emotion...and one day you wake up missing the love of your life and wondering why you aren't talking and why are you sleeping in separate beds! (metaphoric fun-time)

The cool thing about having all these relationships with, and within your Self is that you can fix them upon awareness of the problem because we can only fix or change ourselves.  So I made a date with "creative crack" to talk and determine where this relationship was going.  "Creative crack" was thrilled to have my attention again and we are working on our communication.  We have committed to connecting each day to maintain our relationship and a date night at least once a week to solidify our manifesting.  "Creative crack" isn't jealous of mind chatter, instead told me to listen and heed the commentary from both.  All the direction my purpose, my work, my healing goes in is still up to me.  Well the best way to my heart is to give me the freedom to choose, so "creative crack" had me with that.  I took this advice and have adjusted my workshops, my CD releases, and feel really good about where I'm going.  The surety that "creative crack" offers, mixed with the logic of mind chatter, and the freedom for me to choose with my spirit make for a great threesome.  We are now living happily together in this world of creation, manifestation, and success.

As "creative crack" and I are working on renewing our connection, I do the silliest things.  I color, I make collages, I drop and crank out some Yoga poses to get my energy up when I feel depressed or stuck, I try new recipes, walk or hike,  re-draw my garden plans, dance, tickle my daughter and play with my furry babies.

ACTIVITY INSPIRES CREATIVITY.

I experienced that this is a truth for me.  In the process of rebuilding my connection to creativity I have to be aware of when I'm giving it the silent treatment and through activity I open my body, my mind, and my heart to hearing that language of my Self.  When I am listening to the message that inner language brings, my path is clear.  When I am in good relationship to my creativity, I have the energy to manifest my ideas and time seems to bow to me.   (insert pseudo-evil chuckle for fun)

It's about getting out of our own way, and doing what we need to do to make that happen.  This is something we will do our whole lives and that is not a bad thing.  When we get in our own way it gives us a chance to look at it and ask if this is something we really want.  I say enjoy each moment of self reflection, self realization, healing and being more of who you are. Get active, inspire creativity, dare to howl, and go forward into the direction of your dreams.

HHHOOOWWWLLL!

Through private Shamanic healing sessions, I offer energy medicine and guidance to ownership of your power.  Should you come across a time or situation that you may need assistance with, I am honored to be of help. You can learn more about my services at www.inquirewithin.me or email me at inquirewithin.me@gmail.com