I am stirring a cauldron of questions and curiosity and wonder. Who dictates what gets created and by whom? Why is there fear, resistance, insecurity, and doubt of worth when it comes to creating something new? If humans are creator beings as we create with our thoughts, feelings, actions, and choices; then birthing something of your own voice and truth isn't shitting on the ones that came before you. Right? Look at the history of things and the how things evolve. Where would the iPad be if there wasn't some universal permission to take something and tweek it into something else. (A-HA!) That is chemistry, that is alchemy, that is magic in essence! Therefore, isn't it magical to life a live of creating that which comes from your soul, even if it is inspired by others? Now, of course I'm not talking plagiarism or flat our copyright infringement. I'm questioning the heaviness that is felt when you are seen as less than because you are doing something different that your clan, your teachers, your mentors, your elders. I am also questioning the heaviness that is felt when you are seen as less than because you evolve a concept because it is what rings true for you. And because it rings true for you, your belly lights on fire and you want to share this new way with others. The grounded wild woman in me now brings into mind the cycle of life here, and the reflection of being open and encouraging of evolution of the newly born concept or item as it is being shared or taught. Common sense reminds me that if you want to own the freedom to create, you must also give the freedom to create. When you learn something or apprentice to something, there are always those who come before you. Their teachings, wisdom, and guidance is important and precious. They should always be honored and credited for what they bring you. But what if you take the teachings as inspiration and not law? What could or would you create? Is the heaviness mentioned earlier from them, from you, or from a rigid cultural paradigm that stems from fear? I sense that the fear comes from a place of not wanting to forget where we came from, not wanting to loose parts of historic lessons. I can't help thinking that by honoring what was taught in tandem with what is being created from your soul, the solution is alive. Bringing respect and gratitude to those that come before, and letting the new stuff radiate out of you...like there is a choice when the soul wakes up and says "I've got this thing to make happen!!!"
I've always been a bit of an outsider, wanting to fit in, but never really fully fitting in. On the left of me, I'm to right for them. On the right of me, I'm to left for them; and so on. So, for me, I find it natural to just do stuff my way after a bit. Then there is that "wanting to belong" nudge, that is accompanied by the "I want to learn something new" nudge, and those two elements attract great growth in exactly the right places. For several years I've been studying core Shamanic healing through the LightSong School of Shamanic Studies. Jan Engels-Smith is the founder of this school and it's amazing community of people. There is not language yet for the gratitude I have for this community in my life. It's like a soul family. There are mirrors, cheerleaders, helpers, mentors, opportunities, and so much more. I've had the pleasure of learning so much about core Shamanism, the healing crafts, and leadership. This is the place I learned how to Shamanic journey, and from this skill my soul took inspiration from it, not law.
I remember my 1st and 2nd level classes. We were supposed to get a power song. I couldn't get one, I tried to force one or fake one to feel like I was "doing it right", but it just didn't come. I reverted to my magical background and wove it into the lesson of filling with personal power. In every journey there is a sense of going "out" into non-ordinary reality...and I did...but I found myself not complete with it. So, the day after every class I would take my notes and redo the journeys at home. I found that to feel complete with the journey, they were a sense of going "inward". And they had a much different feel than the journeys I was being taught. By the time I got toward the end of my 2nd level class, I allowed the inner or outer journney to happen...depending on the intention. I just surrendered to trusting the process and let the world within unfold and grow.
The concept and practice of the Inner World has been one I've been teaching and soul crafting for a couple years now. And from this place, the Inner World journey has been birthing itself as my own process of journeying. It's ancestor is the Shamanic journey. Its spirit carries shadows of the foundation brought to us by ancient ones. It holds the elements and directions closely to it's heart. It has it's own voice and process, and brings a unity of the other worlds into the universe of the soul. It brings all elements into one world. I've been doing this process of Inner World journey for several years now, and it only recently occurred to me to watch what I do and how I do it. Holy ass smacks, it was cool! It all unfolded so clearly that this is another way to journey, and from that moment on it has had a momentum and voice of it's own creating. It wants to be shared, taught, explored and evolved. So, I am listening, trusting and lifting the heaviness. I am taking that leap by teaching this form of journeying along side the teaching of core Shamanic journey. I have had clients express interest in learning how to journey, so I have put together a playshop on February 9th to do just that. I will honor my roots and spread my wings as I open my heart for my soul's work to ooze out.
What does your soul want to create?
If you are interested in this playshop, you can find it on my Facebook events page at www.facebook.com/inquirewithin.me OR on my website www.inquirewithin.me. Next time you'll hear from me will be the first of February with your Inquire Within Monthly! Have fun digging within, creating from soul, and dancing while you do it!